Τετάρτη, 27 Ιουλίου 2011
Do you get angry? Do you yell at him? Do you have the patience to explain yourself?
All these questions are in my mind lately. Children can be very cooperative and fun, but children can also be a pain in the ass. Sorry about my lack of other words...
Sometimes my good energy seems to work with children. Little Rosa, from Belgium, was in a very bad mood. She was very sad that she would leave behind me and Freeda and the camping. She made me cry when she gave me a giggle when I kissed her belly... She was so sweet!
It is very interesting when one interacts with kids. They have a whole different perspective about the world.
Kids are not easy. You have to think about every word you say. Every move you make. Because they will copy you in no time. They will show you what you don't like in yourself. And they will show you what you love about yourself...
Δευτέρα, 18 Ιουλίου 2011
|Kamares by night|
One yellow butterfly on the beach...
Yellow, glittering sand on my feet...
Children playing around me...
I will not let my mind blow it all away. I am enjoying every moment on this island. It's a blessing. i could not even imagine that this summer I would live something so intense.
I will stay with the child until the 10th of August. A whole month of child sitting. Games on the beach.
What more can one ask for! I will never forget this summer!
Τετάρτη, 13 Ιουλίου 2011
I do wonder. My mind plays games. In my head I worry, in my mind I fight, in my mind I feel terrible. I look at the sea and I do not enjoy now. It is just stupid. It is just the way I am.
All day yesterday I was feeling terrible. I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I could not stop it. I WOULD not stop it. I was watching myself from a distance feeling terrible. I was worrying for things that are not mine, I was feeling like I had lost myself in a wave of anger and fear. The hours went by, I was losing a beautiful, playful day. The afternoon came and I was watching my child - the child I'm looking after - and his friends play in the sea. They were standing right where the sunset was making it's golden road.
And I took some deep breaths. Here. Now. The children are playing. They are happy. Here. Now. I'm happy watching them. Here. Now. The moon is getting bigger. My reality is beautiful. Stop fighting in your mind. Please. You are safe. You can be happy. You deserve this beauty.
This wave of misery was over. I told him a bedtime story and we went to sleep. It's summer. He is on holiday. He is happy. Me and little Elina are happy too.
Have a nice day...
Δευτέρα, 11 Ιουλίου 2011
And the answer came through my bosses child. Now I'm baby sitting. This seven-year-old came into my life. I'm taking him to the beach. I'm making up stories for him to go to sleep.
I do prefer this child energy in my life. No more Sifnos vanity.
I'll tell you more as the days go by...
Δευτέρα, 4 Ιουλίου 2011
Believe it or not, it's a hectic schedule and you have little time to rest and be yourself.
On the other hand, Sifnos is a funny little place. Every night, the small street I work at, is full of people who are too overdressed, women who wear high heels and are having trouble walking the paved streets! Lots of tv celebrities I do not know because I don''t have a tv... I laugh a lot at this vanity that passes before my eyes... It is so far away from the tomboy I am and I do wonder why people have to behave like this...
Sifnos is a sociological wonder. In the midst of crisis, ladies are buying expencive clothes and gentelmen drive expensive cars. For the past years Sifnos has been a wedding island because of all these little churces by the sea... And a wedding in Greece is still a big, expensive thing to do!
I am thinking that I am here to experience the abundance of the sea and sun, to get out of the "crisis mentality" that some are trying to pass.
I promise myself I will work hard here in Sifnos. I promise I will take the money and keep travelling in places that speak to my soul. I promise I will enjoy this strange and unfamiliar environment.
Have a nice day!
Παρασκευή, 1 Ιουλίου 2011
A lot of work, a lot of new friends and one new achevement. Yesterday I drove a moped for the first time in my life. Everybody tells me it is dangerous, but I am very very careful and I wear a helmet!
I'm so happy and it gives me a sense of independence. An independence I have been denying myself for so many years...
June has been very strange, with it's up's and downs, with work and play and getting to know my surroundings...
And now a new month is at it's beginning and I'm looking forward to it's blessings!
Have a good day